thought in the car...rainy afternoon

sometimes during the solitaire driving experience I`m thinking about a lot of things.
and it happened that i was thinking about me and my activities...lately i have plenty on my plates.
I'm not exaggerating...or im just complaining to my self

Working as teacher in LIA is energy consuming
Not for the teaching time, but for the traveling time...wishing every road to jl.baru is smooth almost as impossible as hoping snow in sahara.

Madania is another story
The "so not my type" teaching become my biggest pocket recently
The kids are just something, but Im more aware about my performance of teaching
I'll flunk easily during the observation...for sure

Working as a "so called"night time shift helper for ADB Consultant is unsure work
Likely to be the biggest buck and could be the easiest one, with one problem...
I dont really get the work, they speak their own language, and Im just a dwarf over the giants.
procurement...MoU...report...Loan neg...
Im there mostly because of the food hahahahaha!!!

Working with Niko is the biggest emotionally consuming lately
Im not really into the one to one teaching aside from my capability (who said I could?)
Demanding mom...confused son...ideal combination for draining my emotion
I`ve had enough for one day if it is their time.

Not to mention other things i wouldnt write...due to my respect for them people

I am drained
Sometimes i feel helpless in the middle of this work...work that I need to stand still

Lord know I am trying