the betrayal peeking
Midnite mid july 2010
Restless and feeling hopeless
Feeling I’m in between two choices, big choices that I have to make and yet I can’t decide which
One way lead to another, and it will uncover all the hidden mysteries.
Not that I can’t live without, but I guess I can’t. Thinking about small ones…breaks my heart to left them. Even if I have to take them with me, theirs will never be the same after the catastrophous event like such. Not thinking only about the home, the live, the everything comes after.
Options are always available, which is to bury them alive. Covering elephant with just a hood.
I will be the one and only to be destroyed…and apparently that’s the only visible thing to do. Let’s correct that…not visible, but possible.
But then again what are the consequences-MY consequences to the Great even if I have to stood this up? I don’t know…don’t know whether He will goes along my last option, but I just knew that there will be less people hurt by the options.
Swearing and Cursing will do no good in such things…I bet that what the victim will do if ever get caught..and I will be pursuing my own ghost by telling it bluntly.
Lord…how You know the every side of everything. Take us to the greater good and bigger perspective, so we can settle everything, every stream, every storm…to the better end.
And I pledge my life to be better.
I don’t know about my other side…lets hope it does too
Restless and feeling hopeless
Feeling I’m in between two choices, big choices that I have to make and yet I can’t decide which
One way lead to another, and it will uncover all the hidden mysteries.
Not that I can’t live without, but I guess I can’t. Thinking about small ones…breaks my heart to left them. Even if I have to take them with me, theirs will never be the same after the catastrophous event like such. Not thinking only about the home, the live, the everything comes after.
Options are always available, which is to bury them alive. Covering elephant with just a hood.
I will be the one and only to be destroyed…and apparently that’s the only visible thing to do. Let’s correct that…not visible, but possible.
But then again what are the consequences-MY consequences to the Great even if I have to stood this up? I don’t know…don’t know whether He will goes along my last option, but I just knew that there will be less people hurt by the options.
Swearing and Cursing will do no good in such things…I bet that what the victim will do if ever get caught..and I will be pursuing my own ghost by telling it bluntly.
Lord…how You know the every side of everything. Take us to the greater good and bigger perspective, so we can settle everything, every stream, every storm…to the better end.
And I pledge my life to be better.
I don’t know about my other side…lets hope it does too
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